a matter of believing
by Dave Elliott
His motion was steady, rhythmic...thrusting deep inside me I moaned and gasped this was my first man...it had only been five minutes since I'd given up my virginity to him...but I loved him...loved him deeply. I still found it hard to believe...hard to accept that I was on a bed with a guy being fucked...and I loved it, fucking was a real joy...but wait this is near the end of the story let us go back in time...back to when it all started. I know you're going to find this hard to believe...it took me a
while to believe it, but I swear this is exactly how it happened.
I was a young single guy, I liked women...in fact I loved women, not in the way that a normal guy liked them...but in a way that I wished oh how I
wished I'd been born a woman...I wanted it so much I could feel it. I
gazed longingly at naked pictures pretending that I could have a body just like them...breasts...beautiful full breasts a virgina...oh how I
wished I had a virgina. I'd swap any woman my penis for her virgina and breasts any day...but in reality the only way I was going to get a virgina was by having an operation...well that's what I thought at the time...and then I met him...met the guy who changed everything for me...without an operation. You don't believe me...well I admit I didn't either in the beginning.
I was also a cross dresser, I loved donning female attire just wearing it gave me a great buzz...watching the transformation in the mirror as I
slowly placed one garment on top of another...slowly building and assembling Joanne...then the make up and finally the hair piece...there was only one problem...when I had completed the task and fell into my alto ego I found it almost impossible to reverse it and would remain so until absolute necessity forced me very, very reluctantly to revert back to my male self.
Now all this was only known to me, none of my male's friends or female friends come to that knew my dark secret or deep passion...Joanne was only known to me. I tell you this because of its significance later.
It was another beautiful day, we'd enjoyed the good fine spell for the last couple of weeks...warm sunny and balmy breezes...life could not be better...well it could be but I'd settle for what was available right now. Lunch was always at the "Coffee Brake" because I and most others thought it so...the best coffee and the best food and most important not too expensive...if you did not hurry then there was every likely hood you would not get a table.
I was running a little late...the computers had gone down at work at the worst possible moment and it was my job to get them back on line...so I
was now running behind time
I stood at the back of the queue thinking shit there's no way I'm going to get a seat here today as one by one we moved up. As I'd walked in I'd seen a table for two on the far side with just one guy sitting there but unlikely to be free by the time came for me to be served. As I waited my turn I watched Sally behind the counter as she served each person in turn...there were three girls but Sally was my pick...she had all the assets that I would like to have...love to have. I could not keep me eyes of her...or that nice tight ass of hers as she strode up and down behind the counter...god would I love a body and an ass like that...I had to turn my attention elsewhere I was starting to get depressed. I grabbed my sandwich and coffee and started to look for a place to settle and eat.
There...over on the far side the table for two and the one guy still eating his lunch...perhaps he had body odor or something...how come it was still available.
I pushed through the crowd toward the vacant seat.
"Anyone sitting there" I asked
"No...no please take it" The stranger said in a very pleasant courteous tone.
"Phew...it's packed today...can't even get a seat out on the footpath" I said
"Well can't blame them its good food and great coffee" he replied
"That's for real" I said as I took a sip of coffee and started on my sandwich.
"It's Paul...Paul Howard isn't it" he asked
I looked at him...trying to place his face...trying to remember where it was we'd met...faces I'm good with but names...well I'm not too great with names...but this face I'm sure I'd never seen before.
I was about to take another bight at the time...I replaced the sandwich on my plate.
"Er excuse me but have we met...I'm sorry but I don't recall seeing you before"
"No...no I assure you we have never met before"
"Then pray do tell...how do you know my name" I asked
"That's irrelevant at this stage...but I do assure you I'm here to help you" he said
"Oh and how can you help me?"
There was a pause as he thought about whether to continue or not.
"I'm here to help you fulfill your wildest dreams and fantasies"
I looked at him wondering what the hell he was talking about...there was only one dream and fantasy and he would not could know that. Just then Sally walked by my eyes following her shapely curved body.
"Yes just that...your wildest dream" he said nodding his head toward the receding Sally.
I spun my attention back to the stranger...my open mouth and astonished look had the stranger reply.
"Yes Paul I know all about it...and that's why I'm here to see you achieve that which you most desire...you know what I mean don't you"
I was speechless for a moment then "How...how do you know that" I
"Again that is irrelevant...suffice that I am aware of the situation"
"And how can you help me...if you know what I want you know it is impossible for me to have it...unless you're some kind of surgeon"
He laughed "Hmm not quite a surgeon...what I can do for you won't need surgery"
"Now I know you're having me on" I said but I needed to know more he had me intrigued
"Ok...ok tell me how can you give me what I want most?" I said as Sally walked past again...my eyes on her ass.
He smiled and said "Well I'd need to de-man you first"
"Ha de-man you mean take a knife to my penis and testicles" I said leaning closer to him in a conspiring way "You said no surgery did you not"
"And I still mean that...no surgery"
"Well you've lost me...how else can you do it"
He took a while to answer the question then "Well to put it rather bluntly and crudely I fuck you up the arse and my seed will do the rest"
I had to laugh "God that is the most original pick up line I've ever heard...why didn't you just ask me out right...I'd have told you straight there and then...NO"
He didn't bat an eye just looked straight at me "It's not a pick up line what I tell you is the truth"
"Oh yeh and I still believe in Father Christmas...the Tooth Fairy and fairy tales" I said still smiling at him
"Think about it Paul...I've never met you before...no one knows your most hidden thoughts and desires and yet here I am offering you a way to paradise as you see and want...doesn't that tell you something"
I continued looking him straight in the eye waiting for him to burst out laughing and saying gotcha...ha...ha...ha but after all what he said was true...how could he know my most inner thoughts...no one did...but I still could not accept his story.
"Look Paul I'll be around until midnight...then I must move on to see others...some I have already serviced...some like you were unbelievers and remain with the desires in the end you must make the decision...here's my card and a phone number if I hear from you before midnight I'll come and service you...if not...." He left the rest unsaid
Just then Sally sauntered by...again my eyes following her perfect form.
He saw where my gaze was and said "Yes Paul it could be you...think about it...think hard about it, this opportunity won't present itself again" then he turned and left the caf�
I sat there trembling slightly...I'd lost my appetite.
"You finished Paul" it was Sally a smile and a sparkle in those beautiful blue eyes. My heart was thumping and pounding in my chest "Nothing wrong with it was there"
"Oh...no...no...I'm just not hungry" I stammered
"Can I clear your plates then" she said still smiling and my heart still thumping.
"Oh yes...yes please do" I replied. I could smell her deodorant as she leaned over to clear my table...my eyes on her ass as she walked away.
Oh god...oh god was it possible...could I...if only.
I found a shaded area in the adjacent park and thought about it. I
watched all the females dressed in their summer attire walking arm in arm or in groups talking and laughing...god if only the voice inside was saying.
It could be Paul...it could be...what do you have to loose. Ok if it is a
line of bullshit what is the worst thing that can happen...you have sex with a guy...but that's not all bad you've thought about that many times before...you could end up enjoying the experience...as they say don't nock it till you've tried it.
I took the strangers card out and looked at it, it read Charles McKenzie and underneath a contact number...nothing else no address...nothing about what he did or where he worked from.
The sight of another shapely heavenly body as it walked by made my mind up for me. I'd do it, stupid and na�ve I may be but there were some things that made me want to at least try.
I made an excuse for returning to work...the computers were all up and running and I was not needed...I dashed home and decided to bring Joanne out of the closet first...within the hour I was once again Joanne...seeing the image in the mirror convinced me more than ever that I'd at least give it a try.
I lifted the phone and dialed the digits a moment later his voice came through
"Hello Paul...you want my assistance then"
God how did he know it was me "Er yes...yes I'd like to go through with it...just give me an hour or so" I said
"No...no don't bother to undress just keep Joanne out...would be better if you did...I'll be straight round"
"How did you know....." all I could hear was the disengaged sound....I was talking to myself he'd hung up.
I sat on the edge of the chair waiting....waiting nervously, every car that passed I jumped up to see if it was him...only to return to the chair to sit and wait.
When the knock came I gave a start...I hadn't heard a car or any sound of approach...when I answered the door I kept out of sight not wanting any passing neighbour to see me dressed in female garb.
"Hi come in" I said somewhat nervously.
"Mmm I like your dress...very nice" he said as he passed me and entered the lounge area.
I really didn't know what to do or say...I'd never done this before and was unsure how to approach the subject or break the ice.
"I suppose we should go to the bedroom to do this" I said
"No...no this will do nicely...there's a nice big table there" he said indicating to the big old antique table I bought a couple of years ago "You can bend over that" he said unsmiling.
I stood staring at him wondering what next to do.
"Well come on...come on might as well get on with it...turn around lift up your dress and bend over the table" he said
I lifted the hem of my dress up around my waist and bent over the table...the cool chamfered edge against my thighs. I heard him unbuckle his belt and unzip his fly pushing his trousers and under pants down as far as his knees.
"Hmmm you have a nice ass on you...it'll look even better when you're a
woman" and I felt his fingers curl around the elastic of my panties and pull them down.
"I'll just rub some lube on to make things a little easier" he said
I felt his finger filled with lube as he pressed it inside my anal slowly working it in...I liked it already and was feeling pretty relaxed until I
felt the hard bulbous head against my arse.
"Now are you absolutely sure this is what you want...once I'm in there is no turning back and there is no reversal...no antidote to what I'm about to do"
"No...no I'm sure....absolutely sure" I said
Just to re-enforce my resolute I reached behind me and with one cheek in each hand pulled them apart ready to take my injection.
"Ohhh...ahhhh" I shouted as he pressed inward...even with the lube it seemed a very large piece of equipment he was trying to insert.
"Relax...relax...don't fight me....let me in...just relax"
I took a deep breath and tried to relax as much as possible and felt the bulbous head enter first, expanding my entrance ahead of the thick shaft...slowly very slowly it sunk deeper and deeper until. "There it's all in Paul...I take it this is your first is it not"
"Yes...yes first time"
"Ha...a virgin no more...you should get used to this...once your fully transformed I'm sure you're going to experience quite a few of these...and enjoy them" he said
His movement was nice and steady...the feeling euphoric as he set up a
rhythmic pace...thrusting me time and time again into the edge of the table.
"You like this Paul...you like being fucked eh?" he said
I could do no other but tell him it was wonderful...yes...yes I really did enjoy it.
"This is the best part of the job...getting to fuck so many people...both men and women" he said as he continued to thrust into me.
"You are having me on really aren't you" I asked
"You'll just have to wait and see...time will tell my young friend"
It was so soothing just lying across a table top and a guy thrusting into me from behind. I heard a lawn mower start up...one of my neighbours cutting his lawns...if only he knew what was going on a few doors away.
"Ok Paul...get ready...my seed is ready to come"
He gave two more deep penetrating thrusts then "Ohhh god here we go" and his humping stopped.
I actually felt the flow of his sperm as his balls unloaded it...then it was like a scolding tap had been turned on my insides felt like hot water was being poured into me.
"Oh god oh god" I screamed
His hands were on my shoulders pressing, holding me down.
"It's alright...it's alright" he said assuring me "You're body is trying to resist the seed...but it can do nothing about it...already my seed is working on you"
As the moments passed so did the hot water feeling.
"You feel ok now" he asked.
"Yes...yes...I'm fine" I said.
He withdrew his syringe and I could see it was still a little hard as he tucked it back into his pants buckled and zipped himself up.
"Well my job is done my friend...I wish you all the best in your new body and it lives up to all you're expectations...good bye" he said and then shook my hand. "I'll see myself out" he said departing.
I quickly pulled up my panties and straightend my dress then hurried to the window to see which way he would go...peering through the sun filters I could see no one...only Mr Sanderson as he mowed his lawns...how could anyone vanish as quick as that.
I moved back to the chair...the chair I'd been sitting on nervously awaiting the arrival of Charles McKenzie less than an hour ago...their was a tingling sensation inside of me but I thought nothing of it...I also felt good...real good I'd just been fucked for the first time by a man.
If I thought that everything was going to happen in a flash (poof...wham) then I was sadly mistaken as the days rolled by I started to think it had all been a big scam and he had used the story to con me into having sex with him...ah well so what I did enjoy the experience and knew I would like to try it again with another guy...so it wasn't all bad news.
I decided to call his number and tell him he was just a con artist.
I dialed the numbers as per his card and got...a disengaged sound, thinking I'd dialed the wrong digits I tried again slowly 0634780...but got the same result.
I rang directory and asked about the number told them I could not get through.
"Sorry sir but that number is not allocated"
"But it must be I just rang the guy the other day...on this same number a
"That's correct Charles McKenzie was the owner of that number but has not been there for over seven years...we have no other numbers for that person...sorry sir"
I put the phone down and stared at it for a while wondering just who Charles McKenzie actually was...well there was nothing else I could do now what was...was it had all happened and I should just put it down to experience.
The days rolled by into months there were times when I felt pain in my body it lasted maybe five minutes at a time then it passed over and I
felt ok again. I did not realise it at the time but my interior plumbing and electrics was slowly transforming from male to female. It was well into the second year since McKenzie had injected me with his seed...another thing I was unaware of was that I had a womb all ready to produce a child...it just needed the exterior parts to develop and link up and that was now happening.
My skin was getting softer smoother body hair was dropping away and I was certain my voice was changing a little also...was it me or were my hips a
little bigger and my ass a little rounder I started to keep photos and measurements to compare any progress.
To confirm my own thoughts it was Les...a friend of mine who said
"Hey you seem to be putting it on around the arse Paul...in a nice way actually we were just comparing your ass to Brenda's there when you were standing next to her at the bar...very much alike actually"
They were only confirming what measurements and pictures already told me...I was changing and now changing pretty fast...at some time I was going to have to tell someone if not all my friends male and female that something was happening to me...of course I had no intention of telling them how it had all come about.
When the tingling started around my breasts and my penis started to shrivel I knew I could withhold the truth no longer.
When Les and Brian were with me at the bar one night I said to them I had something important to tell them...but it had to be kept secret.
"Yeh what is it Paul" Les asked
I looked furtively around the bar checking to see if there was anyone within ear shot.
"Look I've got to confess to you guys...my body is changing...changing quite radically...I'm becoming a female"
They looked at me is stony silence for a moment. Then laughed
"You taking those pills are you...you know the ones transsexuals take...you never told us you were transsexual mate"
"No...no nothing like that...it's just happening naturally...I'm not taking anything honest" I implored them
"And you're just changing sex just like that eh?" Brian said.
"Yes I'm telling you that's how it is"
"What does your doc say?"
"I haven't been to see him" I said
"Don't you think you should?"
"I'm scared to"
"Well if it was me I'd go...I mean this is big...real big...can we see for ourselves" asked Les.
"Come round to my place and I'll show you...its weird real weird"
When I undressed and showed them they just stared and whistled threw their teeth at the sight before them.
"God you're right look at your cock...well it's not a cock really...come to that it's not even a penis...it's just a button...and you're getting real breasts as well...you gotta tell someone pal...apart from us"
Going to the doctors had been on my mind but I resisted seeing him incase he tried to reverse the procedure before I had full developed.
In the mean time my body continued developing and my penis shrunk to nothing, well and truly gone...pissing was done sitting on the pot and my breasts were very obvious, hiding them was getting harder and harder to do...I had to go and see the doctor.
"Hmmm this is strange...very strange...but not unique...I have been reading about other recent cases, it would seem you are not the only one...it has the experts somewhat baffled"
"Well it's sure got me baffled doc" I replied...I wondered if all the other cases were related to Charles McKenzie and his magic sperm.
"Well quite frankly it would seem there is little that can be done to reverse the process...you may have left it too late...why didn't you see me when it started"
"I was too embarrassed I thought it might just go away...but as you say I
might be stuck with it"
After being examined by the specialists they declared it as the same virus that had attacked the others and confirmed it had them baffled, tests and x-rays also confirmed what they already suspected that my body was that of a female...inside and out and that given another six months nine at the most the transformation would be complete...the best they could do was monitor the situation and add it to the list of other transformers.
"You'll just have to make do with the body you are going to have"
"Oh well I suppose I'll get used to it and survive...I'll just have to learn how to be a woman I guess"
"Well we can confirm with the authorities that you are now a female and not a male all papers and registrations will have to be notified and changed...if you can give us a name you wish to be called by we'll set it in motion...but we will need to know if things start to revert back the way they were"
I gave them assurances I would keep in touch and let them know if anything was to happen that they should know about...Paul Howard gave way to Joanne Howard.
Once the papers got hold of the story I was the town celebrity...not always in the best way...too many curious people wanting to know how I'd come about the change. Queer and poofta were other words used...people wanting to view me naked.
As the months pressed on to the conclusion I watched each passing day as my penis folded in on itself and the lips of my new virgina formed...breasts were now full and firm...plumbing and electrics fully connected the transformation complete. I could now stand in front of the mirror and cup my breasts...the breasts I had longed for so much were there for me to touch and massage...I loved them...my hand and fingers touched and delved into my virgina as I
fantasized about a male penis penetrating me...at long last I had what I'd longed for all those years.
I decided to make a clean break...a break from the city I'd known all my life...a city where I'd made friends over the years. Les, Brian and others did not want to know me...well they did but found it embarrassing to be associated with me in case they to were branded as queers...so apart from a few girl friends who were sympathetic and very...very supportive there was little to keep me here and I set out for a new life...a life where my notoriety was not known.
I had skills good skills for office work which I put to use...then I went to Real Estate and found I had a passion for that I made new friends good friends and life was on the up and up...what I had yet to do was have a
man take me to bed...loose my virginity...Charles McKenzie had been my first and only guy...now I needed a man to love.
I met Greg Palmer through Real Estate...he'd just split from his wife and was looking for new lodgings...a two bedroom house in a not too bad part of the city took his interest and his offer was accepted...he was very grateful to me for working and finding him such a great house at the price he could afford...he wanted to put the past behind him and move on, an invitation to dinner that night was just the start...we both felt the magic that was between us as we continued seeing each other. We'd been seeing each other for two or three months by now and we both knew we were right for each other. I'd gone round to his place to help with some of the decoration he was undertaking, we'd started early morning worked through lunch before stopping for pizza and a wine or two...well a wine or three. It was a natural progression as we fell onto his bed started to embrace (which we'd done many times already) and passionate kissing followed. He was on top of me his mouth kissing my mouth, my neck...my ear...oh god it felt wonderful...his hand now up my skirt...touching, rubbing my thigh...hand beneath my panties and fingers roaming delving.
I moaned and squirmed at their touch...not resisting...not wanting to resist. My skirt was being pushed upward around my waist...again no resistance as he continued toward his conquest...there was no resistance to my panties being pulled down...down until I kicked them free and allowed his warm firm hands to push my legs apart...the purr of his zip as he removed his hard erection...the erection that was to be inserted inside me...I took a firm grip on it and sighed "Oh god Greg...Greg"
"Guide me in honey...guide me in"
I placed it at the entrance of my now wet virgina at the same time he thrust upward quickly easily slipping inside. I gasping... "Ahhhh...ohhhhh" he moaning "Mmmmm that feels so good honey" as his ass started up his warm throbbing penis thrusting inside me time after time.
It was the best feeling I'd ever had...I loved having a virgina and I
loved Greg inside it working me into a euphoric frenzy...the bed shaking...groaning in time with each and every thrust of his cock...we'd been gong at it for some time I did not want it to stop but I knew he would have to cum sooner or later...then a thought suddenly hit me...I'd been so keen to have him fuck me I'd forgot all about using a
condom...not only that I'd never given any thought until now about birth control.
"Oh god Greg I don't think...." Was as far as I got when he thrust into me one last time gave a loud cry and stopped, I knew I was too late even as I spoke his sperm was being released those million or so of his seed rushing to fertilize my eggs...somehow I knew there and then I was pregnant. "What did you want to say sweetheart" he asked
"Oh nothing...my love...nothing just to say I love you very much"
"Hmmm and I you my love...and I you"
The second time we did it later that afternoon we were both naked having removed all vestige of clothing...again I let him cum freely...I figured it was far too late to do much about it now...if I wasn't pregnant the first time there was an even better chance I was now.
It was dark as he drove me home, the car headlights mingling with the street lighting as we turned the corner into my street I saw a figure standing under the lamplight...a figure waving to me as we passed. I
recognized it as that of Charles McKenzie.
"Quick stop the car...stop the car" I shouted
"What...what..." Greg said as he brought the car to a standstill.
I jumped from the vehicle and dashed back to where the figure had been...but when I got there it had gone.
"What' up honey" Greg asked coming up behind me and putting his arms around me...comforting me.
"Oh nothing...nothing I thought I saw someone I knew"
"You mean the guy under the light"
"You saw him too did you?" I asked
"Yeh but he seems to have gone now...must have moved pretty fast eh"
I twisted around in his arms put my arms around him, reached up and kissed him.
"Come on darling...take me home...stay the night and make love to me"
"Hmmm sounds like a real good idea...let's go"
I never saw or heard of Charles McKenzie again.
Oh and by the way Greg and I married we now have two children a boy and a
Now tell me do you still NOT believe in Santa Claus and the Tooth Fairy?
Have a nice day and if Charles McKenzie approaches you...well that's a
decision only you can make